27th May 2010

Still emo-ing. Sorry gina I think we'll become emos, my bad. Well anyway no news from PPP, so sad, make bra sad, make bra emo, make bra frustrated and bad mood / moody for so many months etc. Just one message, one call, one smile also cannot??? PPP I really heart you, I'm not lying. Please don't hurt me by leaving me...I need you in my life, you're like a part of me...please just don't say goodbye :'(
okay okay...enough emo-ing. PPP is not worth crying for, at least that's what Steph says...poor bra...What's his problem? or is it my problem? How am I supposed to understand what PPP means by just leaving me without a word ? One minute he's being such a sweetheart, darling this and that, and another minute he's like...Urgh...can't take it anymore. I wanna ask him so badly but I'm afraid he won't say anything or he might even be like " huh? " >.< makes me so angry!!! This thing happens like when a new year starts...how can someone like someone for one year then forget about it the next year and like the same person back the following year and well, you know how it goes...I don't understand people like that. Oh well, inhale and exhale, Deborah ~ I think I'm gonna fail my physics and chem BIG TIME!!! Bio holds a smaller chance of failing...hehe~ Anyway, I'm so looking forward to the trip to Gurney with the whole gina family...Aww...it'll be full of memories =) Yay! Oh and today Bahtera Merdeka sounded 100 times better than before...I'm so grateful to teacher~ So boring...hardly anyone sms me nowadays...again it's PPP's fault for ignoring me, and furthermore my other sms buddy is having exams...so sad, pity pity...the only messages I can be sure or hope to receive are from 2900. Pretty lame huh? No choice, blame PPP again...Oh ya...I kept fretting about PPP that I almost forgot to say I GOT DISTINCTION in Grade 8 piano exam!!! ^^ Which means that technically, I'm gonna continue taking diploma soon...Need to find out about a new piano teacher as quickly as possible. Wish me all the best~ Muakcz... XD

26th May 2010

Ah...Finally, I'm back on blogspot!!! After months of laziness...I have to admit...I've being procrastinating, putting off writing blog...that is so bad~ Don't know what came over me which made me write a new post while listening to Evanescence's 'My Immortal'. Lately, I'm so emo...All because of PPP. PPP just left me hanging by ignoring me (gina hates being ignored >.<), not telling me why is he leaving me (another thing I hate) and most of all acts as nothing happened between us...How could PPP do this??? I cannot believe it...As much as I hate to admit it, I miss PPP, I heart PPP, I need PPP :'(... Okay okay, I"m gonna stop emo-ing. I am gonna erase, delete, clear, eject PPP from my memory, and that is not gonna to be easy, well at least I will try, seriously. I can't possibly go on emo-ing forever can I? It's no point emo-ing over such a person, not worth me doing so. I keep telling myself that, but I can't do it, I just can't, I don't know why...I thank all my friends for being understanding and for their support but somehow it's just not enough to stop me from being emo. Oh well, maybe I should stop writing about emo things in this new post. EXAMS are OVER. Actually I was supposed to write that first not the emo thingy. Unfortunately, the emo thingy popped into my mind first thing so...you get it. Well, my physics sucks, bio's okay, history's better and modern maths...let's just say I'm very reckless when doing maths. Just 1 more mark and I score 80...how careless is that?! Can you believe it??? Anyway, that's not the main point. The main point is holidays are coming!!! and so is the choral evening this Sunday...Let me be straight with you about our condition right now...we suck. And most of all, I'm very sad because our choir seems to be falling apart...some people keep doing other things during our practice while others get mad at them for doing so. Another reason is, the juniors...aren't very keen on improving themselves so it's really hard for us, seniors to teach them or polish the whole group. We teach them a new song, and when they come back the next choir practice, they've either forgotten what they've learnt or don't dare to sing it out. So 'gia su', they seem only desperate in winning but without giving an effort and the songs teacher prepares for us aren't really that bad or not pleasant to the ear. What I wanna say is, if you really enjoy singing or music, then you will enjoy every piece of music which falls into your hands, this is a fact, I'm sure most people who enjoy music the correct way would say so too. It's very frustrating I tell you, with all these problems going in on in the choir we cannot fulfill 'one heart, one soul, one song' that's for sure. What should we do??? I do not want to ruin everyone's friendship and yet I want to tell them overreacting is not the best way to solve anything. Not giving full dedication to only choir work during choir time is also what I would like to say which is something not so good, but can't seem to find the right words. I also need a new way to teach the juniors...Help?! Gonna watch tv now...forget being stressed or frustrated...or at least I'm trying to...but I thank God for providing someone like Yue Wan who stands in the same point of view as me.At least we try to make the best out of everything...unlike some other people. No offense but think about it, really do...